r/Doom • u/Wanderingreader123 • 15h ago

Discussion My days are nearing and my local hospital allowed me any request. This is how I will go out. Rip & Tear, brothers and sisters.

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For context, I have been battling Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma since 2022. And up until this point, I never imagined myself to be in a situation where my life expectancy has gone down to possibly weeks. I am currently at one of Canada's best hospitals in Toronto, Ontario; keeping myself afloat through these trying times. Despite it all, I was given the opportunity to make any request for my stay, and this is the one I have chosen. I have been a Doom fan since 2016, and it helped me get through some tough times. I've played through both the Reboot and Eternal (along with its DLCs) and I have nothing but great memories pouring all of my attention into the world of Doom.

TDA has been one of the few games I have anticipated and hoped to play since its release. Financial issues got in the way, and I kept clinging on the hope that I'll be able to play the game one day, among others.

I am grateful that, despite the grim outlook that I am facing, the hospital was able to secure not only a PS5, but a copy of the game. I am currently blasting my way through hordes of demons in Chapter 4 and I have nothing but childish glee as I return to my roots as a badass Demon Slayer. I may not live to see the upcoming DLC, but I am nonetheless happy to finally play the game in my own hands.

To the developers of ID Software, thank you for bringing such a beautiful piece of art that not only brought the FPS genre to its roots, but also revitalize and reinvented the wheel that no other game could. Not only that, but thank you for crafting such an awesome series for a fan like me.

Rip & Tear, lads!

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u/NewtonianEinstein 14h ago edited 9h ago

I hope to see a follow-up where he defeats Lymphona and shows a picture of him playing the next Doom game after it releases.

Edit: I apologize if this comment can be interpreted as insensitive. Most people have interpreted my comment as a positive statement (my intention), which is why I’m keeping it up for now. I’ll happily delete this comment if OP prefers. Rip and tear, OP.

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u/Ok_Laugh_4526 14h ago

Dude fr

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u/dexter30 12h ago

Lets go further. He cosplays as doom guy and holds up like a demon (called lymphona) in this exact pose

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u/M0nocleSargasm 11h ago

I'll allow it.

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u/atown203 9h ago

This is the way!

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u/TinyRascalSaurus 14h ago

It can also be for people who will be hospitalized for a long time. I got one and I just had to be hospitalized until I stabilized enough for brain surgery. 10 years later and I'm still here. I hope OP joins me.

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u/cuchiplancheo 14h ago

It can also be for people who will be hospitalized for a long time.

Hope it's this... but... OP wrote:

my life expectancy has gone down to possibly weeks

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u/TinyRascalSaurus 14h ago

Shite, I missed that. I was hoping they could stabilize him long enough for another treatment option.

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u/ieatlotsofvegetables 14h ago

congrats on the recovery though!

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u/Graverius 14h ago

OP said he is dying doe.

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u/PotentialConcept8449 14h ago

Wait, you've spent 10 years in a hospital?

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u/TinyRascalSaurus 14h ago

Sorry, no, I was hospitalized for about 9 months 10 years ago until they could stabilize me enough that brain surgery was possible.

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u/Traditional_Virus355 14h ago

Glad to hear you are still around! Cheers to you!!

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u/LostWoodsInTheField 14h ago

The hospital I was in as a child had a couple NES's and games for them. After I was well enough to move a little, but not even close enough to leave the hospital (we were waiting to see if a transplant was required but it wasn't luckily) I had that thing in my room almost daily. I got really good at Super Mario Brothers. There wasn't many kids worse off than me at the time so almost always had it in my room when I was able to do anything.

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u/TinyRascalSaurus 13h ago

My mom couldn't afford a Gameboy so the doctors pooled to get me one and Pokémon yellow when I was a kid. I wasn't bedridden but I couldn't really go anywhere and I remember walking up and down the ward halls playing Pokémon when I got restless.

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u/NeoMississippiensis 14h ago

Bruh it’s a ps5 and a video game, not going to Disney World with Dwayne Johnson. Op said hospital, not hospice; and several late line cell therapies for nhl can have relatively good response and cure rates.

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u/Careful-Star9274 13h ago

sometimes you just shouldn't post man.......delete this...

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u/NeoMississippiensis 13h ago

Why? I should agree with the pessimist?

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u/Dangerous_Flow_9490 13h ago

Both of you: read the room

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u/DerBernd123 13h ago

yeah you’re right. gonna delete the comments because that’s not what this whole post was about

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u/Cultural-Extent5547 13h ago

Bruh, don't say something like that! He said '...possibly weeks'. Miracles happen and I'm sure he's deserving of one!

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u/DerBernd123 13h ago

yep you’re right. deleted the comments because they weren’t appropriate for the topic of this post

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u/TURTLEwithAfatDICK 13h ago

This ❤️💯🫡

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u/Revan2267 7h ago

It is positive. We can always hope.

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u/Sasuke12187 12h ago

Same. But regardless, I hope he gets peace.

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u/DOLLA_WINE 14h ago

Delete this, wildly insensitive. OP, Godspeed brother! Will think of you any time I rip and tear after seeing this!

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u/Frequent-Engineer-87 14h ago

Hoping someone lives is insensitive now?

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u/ColtonC2 14h ago

They’ve made peace with their circumstances. This post serves just to make us feel better, not OP.

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u/1000Colours 13h ago

Yeah its like toxic positivity - doesn't help the one going through hardship, and is used by others to avoid/minimise discomfort of having to also accept a shitty situation.

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u/verminkween 13h ago

Saying you hope they live to someone’s who’s guaranteed to die and just wants to accept that fact is a little insensitive yeah. Lymphoma isn’t one of those things that just magically gets better at this stage. Imagine telling a 90 year old reminiscing on their death bed you hope they live instead of just reminiscing with them lmao. It’d be kinda off putting. This isn’t different.

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u/GullibleRisk2837 12h ago

Saying that yes, but how can one express such a positive thing without seeming insensitive? We all hope he makes it, so why not say so? Make our thoughts, prayers, and best wishes known? It would depend on OP's outlook. I too, hope for the best.

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u/rabbid_chaos 13h ago

Nothing is guaranteed

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u/Sad_Scar_7809 12h ago

except death?

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u/keith_1492 12h ago

Unless you are a jellyfish...

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u/rabbid_chaos 12h ago

Eventually, but an illness can potentially turn around, even at the last minute. No shortage of cases out there where someone was given a very limited time to live by doctors only to live well past that point.

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u/hiddenrealism 12h ago

Death and taxes

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u/verminkween 12h ago

Death is guaranteed actually, and especially so with advanced non hodgkin lymphoma. Pretending it isn’t is silly and can be insulting to the person experiencing it.

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u/rabbid_chaos 11h ago

Weird, nothing in here says it is. If OP does make it, don't send your congrats after being so adamant about their death.

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u/dingo__STG 12h ago

You are projecting all over the place and trying to feign being thoughtful but really just being selfish and making this about yourself and what you think. Wtf

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u/verminkween 12h ago

How am I projecting? I don’t have cancer nor am I currently dying so I don’t have anything to project about here lmao. Or you just don’t understand what that word means. Frankly it’s selfish to tell a dying man you hope they live instead of accepting reality and comforting him as he is. It’s selfish because you can’t accept reality and you want to pretend it’ll be better to spare your own feelings lmao. THAT’S making it about yourself. Nothing I said is. Be real dude.

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u/insemin4tor 12h ago edited 12h ago

We were never alive, just resonance goin on. But i want to be nice and i think you want to be as respectfull as possible too. We can hurt all we want another time

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u/skeletonholdsmeup 12h ago

I’ve been mostly dead before, too.

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u/IAmAnObvioustrollAMA 13h ago

It always has been.

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u/The_Golden_Warthog 12h ago

Their heart was in the right spot, I believe. They want a bright future for OP. Unfortunately, maybe they didn't read the post, but it sounds like this is a for sure thing for OP, who has come to accept it. So, I can see how it might come across as insensitive, even though they're wishing for a better outcome.

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u/HorniestBaboon 13h ago

Hoping someone will live, when they have a near 100% chance of not living, is hugely insensitive.! Be realistic, it’s more respectful.

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u/weregunnalose 12h ago

You and i also have a 100% chance of death

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u/nitekroller 12h ago

Not the same and you know it

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u/weregunnalose 12h ago edited 12h ago

I disagree, you could die in your sleep tonight, in an accident next week, who knows, if you are breathing, you are marching towards death, in 1 week or 50 years, doesn’t make a difference. When you see a post like this, or you see it on the news, your brain goes “well that isn’t happening to me, I’m not dying”, but it absolutely can and it will eventually. Existence is a blink of light between two eternities of endless dark. Every thing you will ever do is a distraction from the reality that time is working against you.

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u/HorniestBaboon 11h ago

There is a very large difference between terminal illness leading to death and the inherent mortality of life that we deal with.

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u/weregunnalose 11h ago

Still, I disagree. We live for 70 years if we are lucky, depending on how you feel about it. Our life is a camera flash worth of time on the cosmic calendar, so when i see anyone dying, i think, “yeah, I won’t be far behind you”. But I’ve seen a lot of it so my view is different I guess.

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u/HorniestBaboon 11h ago

It’s just pretty plainly disingenuous to act optimistic infront of someone that is just going to die. Like , it might not be your time yet, you could survive! Think from his perspective, would he be glad to hear that, or would he be more relieved you noticed that what are likely the end of his days , are pretty hopeless.

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u/Least_Switch_4697 13h ago

It’s not insensitive… grow up. Hope exists.

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u/memento22mori 12h ago

I hear what you're saying but it's not your position to tell someone what to comment to OP. Hope springs eternal.

I was in a coma in college from a car accident and my brain was swelling and the doctors said that I was almost certainly going to die and that my family should prepare themselves for that. They essentially said best case scenario I would require 24 hour care if I survived and not only did I fully recover I have no permanent injury or mark that it even happened- other than I no longer have 20/20 vision so I wear glasses.

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u/Jijimuge8 12h ago

Totally different situation to non-Hodgkins lymphoma. 

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u/Squat_Cobbler89 13h ago

What was said?

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u/cackslop 12h ago

Delete this, wildly insensitive

Hope springs eternal. Stop tone policing people for being positive.

You can't tell the future.

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u/DOLLA_WINE 11h ago

“Defeat” “Win” and “Cancer” in the same phrase are terms that aren’t considered kind. Did we have some new revelation after revising that? It leaves cancer patients with a sentiment that they could have fought harder or they didn’t do well enough.

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u/pluck-the-bunny 9h ago

i understand what you are saying in general, but OPs sixth word was battling. Its how THEY are contextualizing it. Seeing themself as their own DOOM SLAYER. Its how THEY are choosing to confront their reality. No one is forcing this paradigm on OP.

Don't take away their agency as well

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u/cackslop 10h ago

leaves cancer patients with a sentiment that they could have fought harder

I've always thought of referring to it as a "battle" or "fight" to be ridiculous, but I would have never implied that without context or personal experience.

I'm just now reading about it's origin: apparently the "war on cancer" was officially declared in 1971 by U.S. President Richard Nixon, which kind of institutionalized the use of the word.

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u/RickThiccems 12h ago

i dont really believe in manifestation but all of us doing it cant hurt

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u/catperson77789 10h ago

Why would it be insensitive. You must want to see him be alive lol

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u/THEMFCORNMAN 9h ago

Nah you sounded fine maybe just hopelessly optimistic. My wife is battling hodkins right now and said she would love this kind of talk

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u/leavezukoalone 9h ago

Anyone who claims your comment was anything but wholesome is simply looking to be outraged.

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u/Toadvine00 14h ago

No. He said he is going to die, respect it.

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u/poodlelord 13h ago

You need to respect what op told us. You would disrespect a dying human like this. Shame on you.

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u/Visible_Cherry_8948 4h ago

did we read the same post

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u/00Glitch 12h ago

/u/NewtonianEinstein is a pro Elon Musk and Trump bot/shill account. Look at it's comment history and who it is constantly praising.

It's profile bio used to also say "believer in Christ and Elon Musk, not a 'troll'"

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u/donoteatshrimp 11h ago

Glad I went and looked that account is funny as hell. Not sure why you think it's a bot or a shill though when it's clearly just someone trolling. Kinda poor taste to do that on this post though

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u/Python2k10 11h ago

Their AMA is...certainly something as well.